I mean heck, someone could just as well say that I was trans, and that was obviously not right. And then on top of everything else, you didn’t even need it to be trans at all! Then what was the point? You can’t be trans just because you want to be the other gender, that would be too easy.

But it could also be experienced as generalized anxiety or depression that you didn't realize was connected until you started to explore the idea? That was terrifying. Gender dysphoria was supposedly feeling distressed about being the wrong gender, okay sure. But the more you got into the stuff about being transgender… ‘Transgendered’ wasn’t a word, apparently, and ‘transgender’ wasn’t a noun, but an adjective. Not because it was intense or too academic or anything - I was following along perfectly fine.

It was really starting to give me a headache. There were plenty of sites purporting to give basic information and general overviews, and they were all nicely written and everything, but… The bad news: apparently, this stuff was more complicated than I thought. The good news: as it turns out, there were in fact trans people on the internet. Several hours of scrolling later, I found myself with more questions than ever before.

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